and i had seen myself probably two or three times in my arriving at that airport
and i had imagined how things were going to be
i had pictured in my mind a couple of situations that could happen in that context.
but of course, nothing of that took place.
as Bolaño and Porta say: "ideal scenes hurt".

tender is the day
when demons go away

yeap, me too

for the way i feel about you
paradise not lost it's in you