"but if nostalgia means the powerful recollection of strong emotions -and a regret that such feelings are no longer present in our lives- then i plead guilty. .. and if we're talking about strong feelings that will never come again, i suppose it's possible to be nostalgic about remembered pain as well as remembered pleasure. and that opens up the field, doesn't it?..."

the sense of an ending, Julian Barnes

flying people

giving my life to a rainbow like you

there was nothing in the world 

that i ever wanted more

than to feel you deep in y heart

there was nothing in the world

that i ever wanted more

than to never feel the breaking apart

if you could ask me anything tonight, what would it be?

http://www.vam.ac.uk/content/exhibitions/david-bowie-is




i wanna go

...

pushing my face in the memory of you again

but i never know if it's real

never know how i wanted to feel

never quite said what i wanted to say to you

never quite managed the words to explain to you

never quite knew how to make them believable

and now the time has gone

another time undone

...

just for the only fact of knowing that his last video is about berlin, shows to me that i was right when i chose that city.

ok, let's talk about perfection

if you want, for sure

thanks god or the destiny or whatever because some people dont use whasapp or line or viber or skype and because you dont have their telephone number, when you are a little dizzy for the toasts with  good wine, and so you cant call them just for saying that couple of things that you were hiding even from yourself

:0)


anyway ... happy new year
just happy because the secrets are safe  because bigmouth didnt strike this  time 

i used to write a lot here.

all of that is so far away

it seems absolutely impossible to write nowadays

probably i'll never do it again

as borges used to say: i feel prouder of my readings than of my writings 

"phillip tourian is seventeen years old, half turkish and half american. he has a choice of several names but prefers tourian. his father goes under the name of rogers. curly black hair falls over  his forehead , his skin is very pale, and he has green eyes."

"and the hippos were boiled in their tanks", jack kerouac and william  burroughs 

this is the end of the world as we know it

you choose...