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The useless dawn finds me in a deserted street- corner; I have outlived the night. Nights are proud waves; darkblue topheavy waves laden with all the hues of deep spoil, laden with things unlikely and desirable. Nights have a habit of mysterious gifts and refusals, of things half given away, half withheld, of joys with a dark hemisphere. Nights act that way, I tell you. The surge, that night, left me the customary shreds and odd ends: some hated friends to chat with, music for dreams, and the smoking of bitter ashes. The things my hungry heart has no use for. The big wave brought you. Words, any words, your laughter; and you so lazily and incessantly beautiful. We talked and you have forgotten the words. The shattering dawn finds me in a deserted street of my city. Your profile turned away, the sounds that go to make your name, the lilt of your laughter: these are the illustrious toys you have left me. I turn them over in the dawn, I lose them, I find them; I tell them to the few stray dogs and to the few stray stars of the dawn. Your dark rich life ... I must get at you, somehow; I put away those illustrious toys you have left me, I want your hidden look, your real smile -- that lonely, mocking smile your cool mirror knows.
Jorge Luis Borges
Saturday
favourite
all the music during all these years
the music in the middle of the night
in a room that stays in darkness, except for the light that comes from a screen
the books
so many books read by two
maybe in the same language or not
probably at the same time, but not in the same space
some poets, dead, surely
some writers, dead, surely too
some musicians, dead and alive
("all the best ones are dead": someone would say)
the love for the bass
there is always a bass in between
some cats,
stray cats of ocurse
that is what we are.
and nothing else
the music in the middle of the night
in a room that stays in darkness, except for the light that comes from a screen
the books
so many books read by two
maybe in the same language or not
probably at the same time, but not in the same space
some poets, dead, surely
some writers, dead, surely too
some musicians, dead and alive
("all the best ones are dead": someone would say)
the love for the bass
there is always a bass in between
some cats,
stray cats of ocurse
that is what we are.
and nothing else
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have you ever had that weird sensation that a truck is going to crash into you?
...
and you cant even move yourself to avoid the collision because it is too late to make a move and because you have no idea how the things got to that point, and probably because everything seems to be a very beautiful spectacle, including the truck itself.
well, something like that, but a little different.
not only pretty girls make graves, trucks make them too.
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my bass professor sent me a message today.
he said that he was great in his new town, teaching music and literature to people on rehab (Oh, my god, he is teaching to people full of addictions, when he could be here, teaching me... ME, the heir of Paul Mccartney)...
well, he also said that he was happy because his new place was so quiet and nice, and blah blah blah blah...
what does it mean? It means that he never, but never, but never in a million years will come back to Buenos Aires. Ok, probably i'm overreacting, but not too much, so i'll never have my bass lessons again.
There is no doubt at all that we hate it when our friends become sucessful...
yeap, my dear, Morrissey is right as usual.
he did it again.
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when you dedicate a song to someone -and i'm not talking about writing the lyrics and not even playing it- i mean, when you just say: "hey, this song reminded me of you" or "i wanted to make you listen this song" or something like that; pay attention to this:
Nothing can have less loyalty than the fact that you dedicate the same song to two different lovers.
I mean, you choose a song for someone in particular, for any peculiar thing that generates a connection between you and the other one, so just as the new lover cant take the place of the former, cant be the heir of that song either.
In other words, from my point of view, the best thing it would be to pick up new songs for the new relationships.
it is not so difficult, the world is full of music.
because i'm pretty sure that there must be a circle in the hell for the lazy lovers and if there isnt one, they truly deserve it. I hope that Satan makes justice in a case like this.
really.
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oscar wilde wondered: who being loved is poor?
and i answer: probably someone who is loved for the wrong person. someone who is loved for the one who is not wanted to be the lover.
As morrissey said: "i want the one i cant have, and it's driving me mad"
as it is usual we see that the smiths and morrissey give us the answers to everything
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i celebrate this first night of the new year and while i drink wine (ok, i 'm not drinking right now) i think about all the writers who drank alcohol and about that union, very good indeed, between alcohol and literature.
and i find out that even when drinking wine can make you feel untied or whatever, there is impossible to reach that state of illuminati... and it is impossible to feel so untied to make such deep confessions.
i truly believe that you are a genious or not, and it has not connection with the wine you drink
and i also believe that i cant write what i really feel about many things, even in this state... or probably because i havent drunk enough.
anyway, happy new year
and i tie my fingers for not go on writing a couple of truths that you deserve to read
good night
Saturday
and i had seen myself probably two or three times in my arriving at that airport
and i had imagined how things were going to be
i had pictured in my mind a couple of situations that could happen in that context.
but of course, nothing of that took place.
as Bolaño and Porta say: "ideal scenes hurt".
and i had imagined how things were going to be
i had pictured in my mind a couple of situations that could happen in that context.
but of course, nothing of that took place.
as Bolaño and Porta say: "ideal scenes hurt".
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i have been thinking that in all the situations -in music and literature- when one of the lovers invites to the other to die together, the one who brings the idea to the couple is always the desperate one.
Probably, the one who is suffering the more, believes that the death can bring some peace to the end.
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Again she turned to gaze at me. "Hajime", she said after a while."When i look at you driving, sometimes i want to grab the steering wheel and give it a yank. it would kill us, wouldn't it?"
"we'd die, for sure. we're going at eighty miles an hour"
"you'd rather not die with me?"
"i can think of more pleasent ways to go". i laughed. "and besides, we havent listened to the record yet. that's the reason we are here, isn't it?"
"dont worry", she said. "i wont do anything like that. the thought just crosses my mind from time to time."
doesnt it remind you anything?
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i have always thought that there is something wrong when i look at a picture.
the portrait of someone, i mean.
i just couldnt guess what it was, but now i think that i finally found what it is.
when you look that kind of pictures, you use to believe that the one who is caught in the picture is looking at you.
for a moment you feel that you are the receptionist of the picture.
you are part of a relationship between two people: the one in the photograph and you.
but what you forget, or dont know, or dont want or cant see is that there is someone in the middle of you two.
the one that took the picture, the real one to whom the eyes of the person inside the picture are really directed to.
btw: i like one of your pictures.
the one where you are frowning
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between all the strange relationships that i establish with writers, there is one a little peculiar between cortázar and me.
every time that i have given one of his books to a boy, as a gift, the things didnt work out as i expected.
and i'm absolutely sure that i'm not the reason of that failure, because -as everybody knows- i'm nice and adorable and very smart and even funny.
maybe it is because they dont like cortázar or because they dont understand his writing.
i have started to think that they didnt even read the book that i gave to them.
definitely, it is all cortazar's fault.
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Stone is not stone
There was a time when stone was stone
And a face on the street was a finished face.
Between the Thing, myself and God alone
There was an instant symmetry.
Since you have altered all my world this trinity is twisted:
Stone is not stone
And faces like the fractioned characters in dreams are incomplete
Until in the child's inchoate face
I recognize your exiled eyes.
The soldier climbs the glaring stair leaving your shadow.
Tonight, this torn room sleeps
Beneath the starlight bent by you.
Carson Mccullers
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"the popular, and heavily romanticised, interpretation of this closeness is that "There is a light that never goes out" is a love song to johnny marr, who regularly ferried the singer around by car.
asked in 2005 if this was the case, Morrissey stated: "It wasnt and it isnt".
"i never spent much time thinking about that stuff", adds Marr. "it was only after the band split that these theories came out. only Morrissey knows. when we recorded it i wasnt there thinking, "aw, this is about me", or anything. if it is, great. if it's not, then it's still a great song. i'm sure there's worse songs written about me so it might as well be a good one. but, for the record, i wasnt the only person who used to drive Morrissey around by car, put it that way".
Mozipedia, the encyclopedia of Morrissey and The Smiths, Simon Goddard
Monday
"but if nostalgia means the powerful recollection of strong emotions -and a regret that such feelings are no longer present in our lives- then i plead guilty. .. and if we're talking about strong feelings that will never come again, i suppose it's possible to be nostalgic about remembered pain as well as remembered pleasure. and that opens up the field, doesn't it?..."
the sense of an ending, Julian Barnes
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thanks god or the destiny or whatever because some people dont use whasapp or line or viber or skype and because you dont have their telephone number, when you are a little dizzy for the toasts with good wine, and so you cant call them just for saying that couple of things that you were hiding even from yourself
:0)anyway ... happy new year
just happy because the secrets are safe because bigmouth didnt strike this time
Sunday
"phillip tourian is seventeen years old, half turkish and half american. he has a choice of several names but prefers tourian. his father goes under the name of rogers. curly black hair falls over his forehead , his skin is very pale, and he has green eyes."
"and the hippos were boiled in their tanks", jack kerouac and william burroughs
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i find that i have to put myself in those situations to produce any reasonable good writing. i've still got that same thing about when i get to a country or a situation and i have to put myself on a dangerous level, whether emotionally or mentally or physically, and it resolves in things like that: living in Berlin leading what is quite a spartan life for a person of my means, and in forcing myself to live according to the restrictions of that city.
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- Preamble To The Instructions On How To Wind a Watch
Think of this: when they present you with a watch, they are gifting
you with a tiny flowering hell, a wreath of roses, a dungeon of air.
They aren't simply wishing the watch on you, and many more, and we
hope it will last you, it's a good grand, Swiss, seventeen rubies; they aren't just giving you this minute stonecutter which will bind you by the wrist
and walk along with you. They are giving you - they don't know it, it's
terrible that they don't know it - they are gifting you with a new fragile
and precarious piece of yourself, something that's yours but not a part of
your body, that you have to strap to your body like your belt, like a tiny, furious bit of something hanging onto your wrist. They gift you with the
job of having to wind it every day, an obligation to wind it, so that it goes
on being a watch, they gift you with the obsession of looking into jewelry-shop windows to check the exact time, check the radio announcer, check the telephone service. They give you the gift of fear, someone will
steal it from you, it'll fall on the street and get broken. They give you the
gift of your trademark and the assurance that it's a trademark better than others, they gift you with the impulse to compare your watch with other watches. They aren't giving you a watch, you are the gift, they are
giving you yourself for the watch's birthday.
julio cortázar
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